its not that i want to rake up the past, but maybe certain things are really hard to get out of my mind . i don't understand why i get to suffer so much ? is it bcos i've owe someone in my previous life ? that's why my life now is turning upside down, things are also getting out of hands ? i really don't know, i want to know the answers . after so many things happened, i had totally lost my trust on some ppls . my heart hurts alot seriously, why must i suffer all this ? why is heaven so unfair to me ? why am i living on this planet earth ? i don't know how to handle anymore, i'll let things happen and at the same time i'll move on . its true that some certain things are really that hard to forget or let go, but why can some ppl take things easily and let it go so easily but i don't see why can't i ? i think i've changed into another person already, the old huiwen is no longer exist, no longer the same .