i got back my report book on friday, didn't rly do that well compared to the past. i failed 1 subject but EMB3= 21 points, i rly have to wake myself up b4 its all too late. sometimes i rly envy those around me who had done so well, i keep questioning myself why can't i score as well like them? okay enough about all those ranking, went to work ytd but he work at 10pm which is when i am knocking off. signs!! i rly don't know what to do right now, my mind is always so confusing. half part of my mind is telling me not to work anymore, i have to prepare for my N-lvl and yet the other part is telling me that i cannot quit cos i've promised myself that i won't quit unless he is going to serve his NS. both are important for me and i know that my studies is much more important than him but i simply can't bear myself from leaving. i don't know which one to decide, i'll just hand everything to god to fate. i am under so much stress!!